One part of my journey into contemplative practices is the attempt to grow increasingly present in my every day life. I get these little snapshots, when I am meditating, of what it is like to live fully right here in now: in the present, as it unfolds.
The more I meditate, the more I find myself able to bring this into the rest of my life. I have these moments of freedom when I am not ruled by my fears of the future or my regrets of the past. Before I began this journey I had no idea how little I lived in the present. I am deeply aware now, that this is a lifelong project. If I lived another hundred years, and spent 99 of them meditating, I think I still would not be fully present.
Tonight, I was thinking about how God identifies himself to Moses with a name that works out to be something like “I am.” There are all kinds of nuances to this, and implications, and meanings. I think that one of the attributes of these nuances, implications and meanings is that God is Fully Present. (All sorts of people have all sorts of ways of thinking about God as Presence…)
To be fully present: totally right here and right now… This is no less mysterious or awe-inspring than the traditional descriptions of God– all powerful, all knowing, perfectly loving. In the same way that the fundamental forces of physics all turn out to be the same thing at some fundamental level, I suspect that God’s Perfect Presence, and his never-ending power, and his eternal wisdom, and his unending love… I suspect all these things, too, ultimately all turn out to be the same thing, too.