There are many ways to follow Jesus.
The one that resonates with me these days is the path of the mystic. I believe that a deep connection to God is possible. I am experiencing a connection that runs deeper than words, ideas, and doctrine. Experiencing this connection is an act of waking up to a reality that has been present all along.
I have been moved, recently, to take another look at Moses’ first encounter with God in the desert. This passage, in Exodus chapter 3, has shaped my understanding of God… and perhaps more importantly, it has shaped my daily practice as a mystic.
At it’s most general, this encounter is a study in contrasts. More than ever before, God is right there with us. And at the same time, he is so beyond us. Where it begins, Moses’ life has fallen apart. He has fled the only life he has own. He has gone from being a prince to tending his father-in-law’s sheep. He sees something strange: a bush which is on fire but not burned up, and he goes to investigate. And by the third verse, the God-is-here/ God-is there dynamic is already present:
When the Lord saw that he had gone over to look, God called to him from within the bush, “Moses! Moses!”
And Moses said, “Here I am.”
“Do not come any closer,” God said. “Take off your sandals, for the place where you are standing is holy ground.” Then he said, “I am the God of your father,[a] the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac and the God of Jacob.”
On the side of the fact that God is other: he appears as a a burning bush. As if this isn’t weird enough, it’s a fire that doesn’t consume what it has taken over. And as if that weren’t weird enough, he is an all-powerful, talking, ominiscient burning bush. When Moses approaches, he is told that he has entered some place new and special, and that he should not come any closer.
And yet! The very first words that God speaks are Moses’ name. God identifies himself as the god of Moses ancestors. This is a God who understands. He expresses both knowledge and empathy. He beckons his child to him.
Perhaps it is because he is overwhelmed with these two intense realities that this happens next:
Moses hid his face, because he was afraid to look at God
And this is speculation, but perhaps God is responding to his overwhelmed prophet in what he says next. Maybe this is God’s attempt to get Moses feeling close again:
The Lord said, “I have indeed seen the misery of my people in Egypt. I have heard them crying out because of their slave drivers, and I am concerned about their suffering.”
So. There is lots to be said. And so much that can’t be said. I feel that this is just a set up to some of the awesome stuff that will happen in the upcoming verses.
But it’s pretty amazing all on it’s own. I think it’s worth sitting with and chewing on: A God transcendent of all our weaknesses and limitations, but one who is intimately involved with every aspect of our realities nonetheless.
So for now, I think I will stop to breathe.