I was in prayerful meditation, and the Leonard Cohen song, “Come Healing” was playing.
“O troubled dust concealing
An undivided love
The heart beneath is teaching
To the broken heart above”
And I was so struck by this image; it is not, perhaps, what was intended, but it welled up within me, forcefully. It is something that felt right and true.
The image was of a broken hearted God, saddened by the fact that the world is far from where it could be. I have been deeply pondering the idea of “I am” recently, and the idea of mindfullness and presence. I am convinced that a divine attribute is to be wholly here and now, in this very moment. Assuming this is true, God would, be fully aware of hurt, pain, and heart ache. Every ounce of it in every single being alive.
And at the same time, we are headed to this redemption, this mending of all that is broken. God’s awareness of this, too, must be much more complete than mine. And so, while God is fully aware of the pain he is also, I think fully hopeful of a time beyond our current hurt.
I feel like two post scripts are necessary to the above paragraphs. If you are untroubled by the things I wrote above, you might not find it necessary to consider the following…
Post Script #1:
I am keenly aware that the idea of a disapointed, sad, and angry God have been used as a manipulation tactic for far too long. I do not endorse or believe in a God that is broken-hearted by every single choice we make which falls short of perfection. I think his sadness would be an act of solidarity with our sadness.
Post Script #2:
The idea of attributing any emotions to God at all, is a mixed bag for me. I do not think that God’s experience of sadness fully resembles my experience of sadness. One major reason for this is that God, being infinite, could I think be fully broken-hearted and fully hopeful at exactly the same time. It seems that this would be very different than my human, finite experience of being half-way broken hearted and halfway hopeful at the same time.